ill bite my tongue

ive recently decided that the only person i can trust is myself, honestly how much fun is that.
its not i can tell you, some reasons as to why this might be is because
a.i cant tell anyone my shit
b.no one gives a shit
c.i get drown in my sorrows

oh yes what a lovely feeling it is, i really just want to go to europe and walk in the snow where no oneknows my name or who i am because i think it would allow me to think in a foreign environment not that i would feel any better but still.

im quite good at turning people away but im not exactly sure how i do it.
i threw away my best friend because i felt she wasnt there when she was i just didnt notice and the people who ive turned to now. dont understand me the same or have the same patience because if i try to tell one of them its "oh your leaving me out,stealing my best friend" so yer i have no one. the people that i do have i dont see them often enough and an internet connection to someone who lives 2 hours away isnt nearly good enough for me.
ill bet there are hundreds of people in my shoes. and yes it sucks

hopefully my joy will lengthen during the day.

xx